The Prom

Want you say my name,

And tell me that you love me

Even for a game,

I want to know that you are mine.


Hold me in your arms

Feeling the breeze says

Teasing me to pray

That love will find a way.


Chorus:


The moon seems smiling

It’s been a happy day

The song seems unchanging

To a beat that I will wait

I want to ask for a dance

Even if it’s a last song

On the night of the night

I want to take you to the sky


Staring at the corner

Glimpsing at your smile

I can never wait until forever

But to someone else you belonged

The nights seems to end

Waiting for that one last song

It’s been now or too long

I wish my luck will not get wrong

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This song is dedicated for someone whom I never got a chance to dance with in my high school days. I was given two chances but I wasted that opportunity. My fears strike me first now I will never be able to return the past. I wished on that day that even if in my dreams I would dance her for the last time, sad to say the night ended without me even asking her and a life time of regret will remain in my heart.


This song is not yet finished, it is still on the process of series of change in order for it to be close to perfection. I want to make it into an acoustic version but I also want it played with the piano. I hope I will finish it and I hope she will read this and  will say something about this.

Let one live!

A life which is barely breathing
Wandering in the darkest abyss
With only a glimpse of hope that remains
And when will it fade? It is uncertain.

For every minute of that life
Is extended by unnatural means
To live or to let go, a decision
A broken heart, is a question.

Where every hand that touches
Involves a scythe to raise
When everything will only lead to death
Will one prolong it or let it be?

What's good for it for a person?
When at his mortal end, is coming near
Should hope be grasp and to suffer?
Or a life to embrace, in hands of the Creator?

This is my poem submitted to Mr. Tomacruz, My philosophy teacher when I was still in my college years, 4th year. This poem is themed "Euthanasia"

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Leave Your Sleep (2CD)

Waiting is frustrating.

I am tired of waiting for something which is very far to happen. It is so frustrating hoping for something which is so unsure and yet so promising. Almost everyone falls into this kind of realizations and everyone had experience such dilemma.

There was a point in my life when I hoped so much for that thing to happen. I waited and waited until the days which was said to be the reward of the wait, but still it end up expecting nothing. Empty promises made me very pessimistic as to never hope for something and wait for it to realize. The frustrations I felt whenever the days are arriving and another day to re-promise the same old thing made me very weak. Why is it a thing you needed most will never be yours even though you did everything you could in order to achieved it? I guess not everyone is blessed, only a few are chosen not to wait and just receive whatever they need no matter how luxurious it is or how simple it maybe.

Waiting is a test of patience but if at the end of that constant waiting you find yourself empty, it will be so frustrating to even hope again for it to happen. Even waiting for a person to come to your life is frustrating, specially if you don't know who and what that person is. How will he/she come in once life or if is he/she is the one.

Life is always a series of waiting and no matter what will happen we will always wait. It maybe frustrating that sometimes the ones a person is waiting will never come and is never meant to happen but we must still find ways for us to hope though it hurts to get hurt all over again. Just like what I did, though I became a slave of my this frustrations at first due to the cruelty of a wait, I managed myself to still stand and fight and to make more hopes and wait for it to happen until I breathe my last breath.
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The Short Second Life of Bree Tanner: An Eclipse Novella (Twilight Saga)

The mystery of the Stolen Art

A few months ago, a strange thing happened in my room. Actually it is a series of a very unfortunate events that really shocked me in my knees. The first incident is the mystery of the lost first drawing. First because I lost two drawing. I just posted it in the wall of my room and now it is mysteriously missing.

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The first drawing was a portrait sketch by me in anime style, since I like anime so much, named Arashi and Rein. It is a sketch of Arashi (male character) and Rein (female character) in intimate position. I really made it very dramatic and I can say it is one of my best art so far. To give you the clear view here is the scanned version the drawing. Good thing I was able to make a digital copy of it, if not I would not be seeing it again. So here it is.


The next item in the crime scene was entitled Keronee. I really liked that drawing though I was not able to fix the eyes and I did that in a matter of minutes out of boredom and during that time my insomnia. It is also a large size sketch and I also liked it because my friend liked it. So to give the full details of the mystery item, here is the digital copy of that picture.



Even Until now I am hoping that I would see my drawing. I am also hoping to see it in famous walls someday (dream on Paul!hahahahah). I reallycherish all my works and I now I don't really care where it is, the mystery drawing, what is important to is that I could still glimpsed at it one more time knowing that it is in good hands.


P.S.: After that incident I lost my laptop and caught the culprit. I suspect that the same criminal is responsible for the theft but I was not able to locate my drawings only my laptop.

Unappreciated work.

I am very irritated by the grade I received from this work of ours. It is "OURS" because it was a project along with my partner Pipo. We worked so hard with this project and due to time constraints we were not able to pass it on time. They said the reason why we received that grade is for the late reason but I asked our teacher regarding late submission and he said nothing will be deducted he'll give a grade accordingly. He should have said that deductions and a ceiling grade limit would be given to us so that I wont be doing any sentiments.

Anyway, this work of ours is made using a collaboration of different mediums namely; Blender, Adobe After Effects Cs4, Adobe Premiere, Adobe Audition and Audacity. I hope you will like this video. I did the compiling, Blender stuff and the music while pipo was in charge withe the After Effects portion. Its not the best but I am pleased with what we have accomplished.

Dancing Rusty

I have been doing a lot of post regarding this work of mine and I am still writing about it. Anyway, this is my first 3d animation done in blender. I called it the Dancing Rusty. It's not yet very polished yet since I did it for 2 weeks only but I really could say I have done my best out of it. Come to think of it, my laptop was not really capable but I manage to pull it through.

Rusty is one of my favorite dog who left this dimension and is now with God, if dogs has souls. I heard that pets go to heaven and hope he really does because I really missed that dog of mine. He is very gentle and very playful and he actually comforts me when I am lonely. When he died, I was not there so I was kind of sad about hearing his death.

In honor of my favorite dog, I made a model out of him and made him dance. The song is a Japanese song by Younha titled "Houki Boshi" or as I searched it "Abandoned Star" in English translation. It is done using blender and it is my first project to be done on that media. I wish you like it and please do leave a comment. I know it needs a lot of improvements but I will definitely do my best next time.

Doing Nothing after Doing A lot of work

I find it quite very relieving after finishing as task done for almost eight hours. It is exhausting and sometimes very frustrating specially if at the peak of what ever you are doing, you suddenly end up messing the last few things. After fixing the mess that is done and after all that long hard work, ironically I crave for something to do just to buy time since I end up finishing my task on a rather fast pace.

Currently I am on a training for a SEO company and is doing nothing but searching sites. A quota of hundred sites seems very impossible to meet on an eight hour working hours. As the training progress, I found ways to make my work easier and searched sites as fast as I could in order to have a time for relaxation. Well, its tiring to work but its more infuriating to wait for the time to pass with nothing to do. So here I am doing starting a blog just to buy time and entertain myself so I will not get bored waiting for the time.

I am hoping I would be doing just fine after this training and if I am to pursue this career, then I wish I would still find a time for me to do nothing and play around with my blog. I wish I would be bored again to open my, I don't know the count anymore of this, blog just to entertain myself. I hate boring jobs but it seems it is the only opportunity I can grab for now. Maybe I'll get use to doing a lot of work and then if done early will do nothing but wait for the time to pass by. :D