Me Singing Poker Face Glee Version

I really love this song. The first time I saw this rendition on Glee I was so moved to sing my own version of it. Actually I heard this once in a radio station but its was another version but still I liked the way they varied the song. My voice is a bit crack in this version of mine and the microphone of my laptop is no good at all.

In my own interpretation, I want to give a poker face to everyone who hated me and hurt me a lot in the past. My friends, my loved ones and the persons I once cherished who caused me the biggest pain in my life. I want to be strong so I don't want them seeing me again weeping. I want to give them a poker face never revealing how I really feel inside. No more pain from my face, no more sadness and perhaps no more happiness.

I wish someday, I will be able to remove this poker face masked and be myself again to someone who could love me. Someone whom I could love as well and be with me forever. For now, I will wear this poker face. For now, I wont reveal the real me not even to those who already knew me.

Hurting someone is a double edge sword. Though you are the one causing the pain, it will hurt you even more inside. It's not only guilt that you felt specially if the person you hurt is the person you hold so dearly.Sorry isn't enough, but sorry is the only word that we could utter when we are sincere in our mistakes. No more explanations since the more words we speak, the more confusing it gets.

This song is a version done by Gabe Bondoc, a youtube artist. This song is a mirror of what I feel right now. Of course, I don't want a standing ovation or a bow, all I need is forgiveness and hoping that someday everything will be okay. That someday I will never ever hurt someone again so that they will not close the curtain and leave me forever.

More than you know

Your smile, oh it makes me think for a while

You're like  an angel, falling from the sky

Your eyes, talks to me as if saying

I am your most special one

(Refrain:)

But I, never knew how much I loved you

I just couldn't tell how much I feel

And you wanted me to love you

More than I could give

But did you know, your more than special in my heart

Just being with you makes me

Loose myself!

I love you, more than you know.

It was at the time of my confusion

You came across and saved me

You were you so persistent while

I was so hesitant to love again

You want to keep me forever, but I said no

Let us cherish today coz we don't know

What lies ahead, don't be afraid

I love more than you think I could

(Refrain)

Stop listening from opinions

Just listen to your heart

And you'll know, I love you

More than you know

It's been a while since my last post, but here I am again posting my song to someone. I hope you will read this and see how sincere I was.

Nostalgic, my colleague was playing songs from the original sound track of this Disney movie Hercules. I kept on saying "I know the songs back when I was younger and I could even sing with it back then.". I really love this movie since it portrayed a story of being a hero from being zero. I too am a zero and am hoping that someday, though not here and not at the moment, be a somebody that everybody would be proud of.

Disney musics are indeed very creative as this movie is another evidence of their non-dying musicals. The songs added a significant effect to the mood of the movie since its music range from being joyful to being extravagant. The music is never of no relevance and the songs do complement the messages that the writer would like to convey the audience. There was never a boring sound in this movie and I can say Disney is indeed a trademark of grandiose music and a magnificent musicality.

The story line of the movie involves the fall of Hercules as was turned into a human when he was just a baby. He lost his immortality and the claim of the throne, but it is a start of an even greater honor which would lead him to a more challenging adventures. Meeting new friends along the way, a city where he will be praised for his heroic acts and a lovely damsel in distress that would soon become his love affair. The transition of being a zero to a hero is very typical but Disney has indeed made it very interesting to eyes of the viewers that even adults could enjoy and get a lesson with.

The animation sequence itself is splendid and is very well-done. Color combination are very well coordinated and every color compliments the attitude of the character.

Character creation is very interesting, though each character is a deviation of the original since the movie itself is another version of the real Hercules story. Maybe the reason for this is to make appeal to the child auditions and to portray happy endings since it is a Disney movie.

This movie is really a fun-filled movie and to those who haven't watch this yet, bring out the child in you and view this awesome film.

Silent is a must.

I was full of words to express to my friends back then. The world seems not to end when I am with them. I tell them everything I feel without even setting limits. I am very transparent, I mean almost, since they know almost all of my sentiments. But now, everything seem so settle in a quiescence. I turn myself into the embrace of silent and could never come back to the time where I was restless and hyper.

The nostalgia is still chilling me whenever I hear my friends laugh. I miss the times where I could still relate to them and could even go on a day just giggling. Its as if I don't know them at all. They are close yet my hands are reaching to a distant somebody that whenever I try to reach, they all keep moving away. I turn myself into a silent, and it is a must. Since I realized they hate me being a loud mouth person. They hate me for being me. That is why I slowly removed myself to the social interactions that is around me. As much as possible,I avoid gaining new friends.

Another reason for this unending silence that I keep myself as a promise is the betrayal of a once good friend. I anticipated the time that my friends would just go out without me. I may be over acting for thinking such pathetic little misery, but I can't deny how I feel. I ask them why? I was only given a stare of blank face. A face who is against my morals which I can no longer comprehend. I moved away and muted my heart. I became silent.

The tragedy did not occurred once. It has been done not once, but a number which I can no longer count with either both my fingers and my toes. I don't know if it was my fault or was it theirs.  The only thing that keeps me going right now is the instinct to live.

Silent, they asked me why I am silent. Silent as if I did not exist. I made a big wall against them. I did not lost only one, I lost everything. Its my fault. I just need to grow up that is why I kept myself into silent.

Paklay: Goat's Guts

This my friend is called a Goat's guts. Actually, its just a term to make "Paklay" sounds enticing. It is a one of the favorite Filipino recipe which involves cooking the internal organs of the Capra aegagrus hircus commonly known as the goat.


Guts? Sounds very yucky right? Just imagine the internals entering you mouth and a odorous smells welcomes your nose while devouring the unimaginable. Well, it is not really like that. Actually it taste really good. It is indeed the internals you are eating but minus the odor if it is cooked well.  Just don't be deceived by the idea of eating a disgusting guts, then you would surely taste an exotic cuisine with fine taste.  A mixture of a sour feeling and bitter taste makes it very appealing to the taste buds.


This Paklay "Goat Guts", is actually cooked by my personal favorite infamous chef that I usually bully, my brother. I always scold him for being a reckless cook, but I do commend him for a job well done in cooking this tough food. He made it find that you could no longer care whether it is an internal of a goat. The taste is just perfect. Even the mixtures of the ingredients, you could say it is a fine cuisine. Just don't

The Prom

Want you say my name,

And tell me that you love me

Even for a game,

I want to know that you are mine.


Hold me in your arms

Feeling the breeze says

Teasing me to pray

That love will find a way.


Chorus:


The moon seems smiling

It’s been a happy day

The song seems unchanging

To a beat that I will wait

I want to ask for a dance

Even if it’s a last song

On the night of the night

I want to take you to the sky


Staring at the corner

Glimpsing at your smile

I can never wait until forever

But to someone else you belonged

The nights seems to end

Waiting for that one last song

It’s been now or too long

I wish my luck will not get wrong

[Chorus:]



This song is dedicated for someone whom I never got a chance to dance with in my high school days. I was given two chances but I wasted that opportunity. My fears strike me first now I will never be able to return the past. I wished on that day that even if in my dreams I would dance her for the last time, sad to say the night ended without me even asking her and a life time of regret will remain in my heart.


This song is not yet finished, it is still on the process of series of change in order for it to be close to perfection. I want to make it into an acoustic version but I also want it played with the piano. I hope I will finish it and I hope she will read this and  will say something about this.